Her security system beeped a welcome as she punched in the code and entered the small office she kept for herself. The whole building was hers--a long, low bungalow of four offices on busy Montana Avenue in the heart of Santa Monica's conspicuous consumption district. Not the touristy part, but the part where residents went to hang out and sip seven dollar lattes while waiting for their next big deal, or at least pretending to. She only used one of the offices, renting out the other three to a couple of lawyers and a therapist. Most of her clients never came to her office after their first visit, and when they did, it was usually after dark.
Her late hours were perhaps a bit unusual, but it worked well enough for her human clients, and it opened possibilities to her other clientele. Cynthia had never planned on being the investigator of choice for the west coast vampire community. When she left the LAPD, she'd had something more like "investigator to the stars" in mind. Family connections gave her access to a world of privilege and entitlement, where spending a few thousand to have someone follow your cheating husband Instead, by pure chance, Cyn had found herself in the right place to save a vampire's life and changed her own in the process.
Vampires called her from as far away as Colorado and Montana. She didn't mind finding their long lost relatives or digging up forgotten bank accounts or family heirlooms. Half her business was for one vampire or another, and they paid very well. But she never accepted the personal invitations that sometimes followed. She had no desire to delve any further into a society where blood was the beverage of choice, and hers was on tap. Her office phone was ringing when she walked in. She dropped everything on her desk and grabbed it before voice mail kicked in.
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It was the lawyer next door. She's here now. The usual cheating husband. She was tempted to decline the job. She might joke with Linville, but it really got to her sometimes. She sighed. On the other hand, she had no other cases on the horizon, and while she wouldn't exactly starve without the income, she did try to make the agency pay for itself. She told the lawyer to send his client on over. Nearly an hour and a full box of Kleenex later, Cyn was regretting the impulse and thinking it was too bad the therapist wasn't in today, because this woman really needed someone to talk to far more than she needed a PI.
But Cynthia was not going to be that someone. She'd learned the hard way not to get personally involved with her clients' marital problems. Some jilted spouses cried, some stared vacantly in a sort of bleak acceptance, and still others were mad as hell and determined to make the offending spouse suffer as much as possible. But they all had one thing in common. They were looking for someone to blame for their current predicament.
And too often that blame fell on Cynthia for providing evidence of the very infidelity she'd been hired to uncover in the first place. After ushering the distraught woman out the back door with assurances of sympathy and a speedy indictment of the wandering husband, Cyn sank down into her chair with a relieved breath and thought about taking the rest of the night off.
On the one hand, with the information the wife had already provided, she could probably get the evidence she needed and close the case by morning; on the other--Her phone rang and she answered, hoping for a reprieve. You in town? Meet me. She couldn't help it. Nick was an unrepentant rogue, charming, handsome She thought about the latest cheating husband and shrugged. See All Customer Reviews. Shop Books. Read an excerpt of this book! Add to Wishlist. USD Sign in to Purchase Instantly.
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Just be prepared to spend a great deal of time laughing out loud when you read this series not recommended that you read in the library! A totally drugged, surgically altered and thoroughly programmed psyche is only good for robotic slave-service and this may also be going on also, by the way. It is in this understanding that we find our way out of the trap. It is not good food otherwise!
One or both partners may be putting the other partner on a pedestal, with ecstatic feelings and ego boosting episodes arising as a result…and suddenly, they will be let down, and sink to an emotional low, all of which transpires from one day to the next. It literally feels like the targeted person is losing their mind, and where no rational, balanced and grounded communication between partners is possible in order to work things out. The third category describes the emotional manipulation and psychopathology element of this program. One or both partners may display unusually-controlling, manipulative, abusive or attention-getting behaviour patterns such as narcissism or a Jekyll-Hyde duality.
There are various degrees to this possession occurrence — from more subtle and covert expressions, to more obvious and overt outbursts — but the goal is the same: to create drama, reactive eruptions, and emotional turmoil in order to feed off it, or to further other alien agendas as mentioned before in this article. This quote by LKJ mentioned above is important to keep in mind:.
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Then your eyes meet. There is a sense of familiarity, as if you already know this strange new person, perhaps from another place or time. The locked gaze, the sensation of butterflies swirling in your stomach, the feeling of excitement, anxiety, and perhaps even danger all lurk inside you.
You can barely contain the sense that something big is happening. Maybe he or she asks you something that was on your mind, just as you were going to speak it. You seem familiar. Perhaps you recall a recent dream when you saw the face of your could-be lover. He or she is wearing the same color that appeared in your dream, or perhaps appears in a familiar scene. You now feel that the dream was some sort of divine precognitive foreshadowing.
Your dream lover has come to life. Your senses feel heightened, more alive. Those zingy, tingly, warm, and fuzzy feelings in your body seem to be resonating with this other person. Did you just meet The One? Your soul mate? Is this a sign that this person is about to enter center stage in your life? You exchange phone numbers and email. Next time you meet, you talk about things that you thought no one would ever really share with you, much less understand. You seem to have so much in common. Perhaps the person is not normally your type, yet inexplicably you share a powerful connection.
The erotic fantasies begin. Somehow they feel so much more real. Why is that? From deep inside, however, you feel a subtle hint of push-pull resistance. Your inner voice tries to check in with you, but you squash it like a bug. A series of magical phone calls, texting, emailing, and meetings begin. Perhaps you are compelled to drive long distances or even go across the country to meet with your newfound lover-to-be. That first kiss sends electrical thrills that zip right down to your erogenous zones. You kiss again, deeply. It happens so easily, so fast.
Sex feels so natural and connected. You feel less inhibited and the creative juices flow. You take greater risks that may be out of character for you. I want passion! Now the roller coaster drama begins, and your life turns upside down. He or she makes you feel on top of the world, desired, cherished, and important. Events seem magically to unfold as though a divine script were being written that has pierced through the wall of your lonely heart.
You are on a blissful high. Something happens. At some point, where you once felt excitement and passion, you wonder why you begin to feel weak and a little drained. Maybe your partner reveals a dark side. Emotional manipulation starts to unveil. Is your partner deliberately manipulating you like an emotional vampire, or does it just seem like it? The emotional crashing lows begin, and you start to feel that events are unfolding out of your control.
Eventually, unrequited love pangs tear at your heart as you and your lover are buffeted about in one drama after another. In time, you become an emotional wreck. You feel sucked dry of your emotions, logic, and better sense.
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What happened? A lot of what Lorgen describes may sound like the typical phases of any relationship that possesses passion and uncertainty. The initial infatuation, emotional highs, projections, great sex, and all of those hormones creating a rush of bliss and excitement…that is usually the romantic phase. Then reality kicks in, and the shadow appears, triggering childhood wounds and other issues that usually come up in any relationship as it matures.
Magical and Supernatural elements that preceded or occurred during the love affair. Paranormal activity. Love match seems to have been influenced from the beyond, as if it was meant to be. Emotional highs and crashing lows, emotional and psychic draining. You may have been perceived on a pedestal with ecstatic feelings, then were suddenly let down to an emotional low, either by the partner or through events out of your control. Lots of drama. Emotional Manipulation and the Psychopathology Element.
Did your partner have unusually controlling, manipulative or abusive and attention-getting behaviors such as. Things such as vivid dreams, astral connecting with the partner, synchronicities, a stronger psychic link with the partner than was normally experienced with anyone, etc. Did your heart area, solar plexus or other areas feel distinctly different?
Taking greater risks, for example. How long did the relationship last? I want to say a little more about the hallmarks of the Dark Side of Cupid experience. When examined from afar, the beginnings of the love drama appear positive, and perhaps within the normal range of human experience. But when delving deeper into the dynamics of the love match, I noticed that the experience held a greater degree of a magical reality.
Obviously there are many variations and degrees with regards to the symptoms listed above, and not all of them have to apply to each case. It takes deeper introspection, recapitulation, and objectivity to see all of the red flags — warning signs which people tend to rationalize away, as happened to me and my experiences when I initially looked back on them after the fact. Oftentimes, this level of hindsight is not possible until the relationship has truly ended — and one subsequently attained a more balanced emotional state — so as to understand what actually transpired.
The two most common factors which increase the possibly of becoming a target for a Love Bite or Dark Side of Cupid scenario are:. These people tended to do a lot of internet research and radio talk show involvement, and had interests in spirituality and the paranormal. Some were whistleblowers. Many of them had psychic abilities and a greater awareness on social and esoteric levels. One may ask, how can this be a vulnerability factor? If lack of awareness were a major vulnerability factor why would aware people be so vulnerable?
Over two-thirds of the Dark Side of Cupid cases involved people in careers such as teaching, counseling, nursing, and psychic intuitive work. These individuals have a tendency for a high empathy factor, and are more giving in nature. There were no episodes of high emotional drama, no paranormal occurrences, and no over-the-top magical synchronicities. I never felt that I had a fear of intimacy, nor a fear of love relationships in general. Things emerge, you know. During the making of the film, we both experienced high strangeness events in our lives.
Humberto started to get involved in a relationship that displayed symptoms of the Love Bite program. He started to have dreams about abductions, and even began having abduction-like experiences such as waking up to find himself lying in the opposite direction to where he fell asleep, and discovering strange body marks, cuts and scratches on his body.
His relationship turned into a downward spiral, with a lot of irrational behaviour and emotional drama that was initiated by the girl he was involved with; then, one day, she literally just disappeared without a word, removing the opportunity for communication or closure. It took Humberto a long time to get over it. While we were making the film, a new female client started coming into my studio for massage sessions. It was someone I had never met before, and who had no idea about my research interests besides bodywork. I usually check in with my clients before the start of a session, asking how they are feeling, what is going in their lives, and also inquire about their dreams so as to get a better assessment of where the person is at and how their emotional life and stress levels affect their body.
The dream experience this particular women shared with me was a textbook alien abduction scenario. She told me that she had a dream in which a small creature appeared at her bedside. She then woke up and felt s strange presence. She looked out of the window and saw a UFO taking off right behind her house.
She told me that she had no idea what that meant, and that she had no background knowledge — or any interest — in the topic of UFOs. I just gave her some bodywork to help get her grounded, as she was going through a lot in her life at the time, especially with regards to relationships. A week later, she came back again for another session. This time, she shared more of her personal history, telling me that her whole family even her grandparents have had strange encounters with aliens and UFO sightings. It seems to have been a phenomenon that passed through her lineage, which is another big clue.
She then shared with me another dream she had, which occurred after the first bodywork session we had together. She had no idea what that meant, and neither did I. Since we had established a good rapport and basic level of trust, I then suggested that she begin looking into UFO literature in order to see if she might find some similarities in relation to her experiences. She agreed with my advice, and was looking forward to continuing with the sessions. However, after that second session, I never saw her or heard from her again.
I have no idea why. Was she too freaked out about what she had experienced in her dream-states, and did these strange visions increase in intensity since she had met me? The strangeness intensified when we released the UFO documentary in During the making of the UFO documentary, I became involved in an on-again,off-again long-distance relationship with a woman who turned out to be an abductee, and who was also raised in a military family — her parents and grandparents had discussed having abduction-like experiences.
It was a very complicated relationship. She visited me periodically, and we had a very strong sexual connection. Even when she had left for home, I felt the strange but strong pull to see her again, it was almost obsessive in nature. We talked a lot over the phone, and during this time period she had an encounter with a reptilian entity in the middle of the night which we discussed together.
After we released the UFO documentary on Youtube in , things got worse between us, and the relationship eventually blew up. I was very emotionally drained and exhausted. My next relationship lasted longer, about one-and-a-half years; I met this woman at a workshop I had attended at Esalen Institute, and felt intensely drawn to her. At the beginning of our relationship, it was intensely sensual and sexual.
Both of us had never experienced such a connection before in our love lives.
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After only two months of knowing one another, she moved in with me — a big step, which I had suggested to her. Looking back, I can only shake my head in bemusement at my thought processes at the time or lack thereof. Things started off nicely with this new arrangement, but soon enough the beauty turned sour, and our connection went downhill very quickly.
A lot of issues and childhood wounds came up for me during this time as well, which I wrote about in Spiritual Bypassing, Relationships and the Shadow. At one point she started to shame me about my work and what I do to the point that I went into a downward spiral of deep depression and even suicidal thoughts. I literally contemplated suicide and without the support of my good friends I would have not made it through it all. I even thought at one point to delete all the videos we made and this blog. I saw no sense of going on. The emotional pain was too much to bear. I also had a lot of pain in my solar plexus.
In retrospect, it felt as if my partners and I were being played like pawns on a chessboard. With that out of the way, here is a brief overview of my third and most powerful experience with the hyperdimensional-manipulation relationship program. I found myself in a strong romantic bliss mindset with all of the fuzziness and butterflies that accompany such feelings with someone I met over the internet.
She contacted me because she had followed my work for some years; it initially felt nice to connect that way with someone new. I told my friend Humberto about my new online interest, and he saw some red flags from the get-go which other friends confirmed later on as well , but again, I ignored all of these warnings, distracted as I was by appearances and my emotional high. After only a couple of weeks of skyping, we decided to meet each other in person, as there were a lot of synchronicities which seemed to show that this was meant to happen: we were having dreams of each other, we finished each other sentences as if we were psychically-linked, and so on.
It was all very magical. She booked a flight, and came to visit me; as I drove to the airport to pick her up, I vividly remember feeling that something was not right about this situation. Everything had happened way too fast, but again, I ignored all of the red flags and deeper intuitions which my mind was receiving at the time. And honestly, after having not been with a woman for a year and a half, I was just looking forward to enjoying some female company.
There was a very strong sexual connection between us, which was quickly consummated — the first night she stayed with me, we had sex right away. We both loved the passion, and it was an amazing experience. However, after the third straight day of having sex, I fell sick in a very bad way, coming down with fever and a severely-infected sore throat. After less than five days of her being at my place, while I was still trying to recover from my mystery illness, other issues came up. According to her, I was not showing enough affection, nor giving her more compliments. So I saw this declaration in a positive light, and as an opportunity to address these issues, especially since this related to some of my work about shadow projection and unfulfilled childhood needs.
However, communicating about all of this in a reasonable way was not possible. She got significantly triggered, and had many romantic expectations that she would rather address instead. We came to an understanding here and there — moments where she was able to see how a lot of this drama related to her childhood, and we could switch back into romance mode, enjoying our time together and relax as well. But then the dynamic shifted all over again, as if everything we had talked about was just forgotten, resulting in more overblown emotional turmoil.
Keep in mind that all of this started to happen only one week into our meeting in person. Naturally, I got turned off by her passive-aggressive comments, and chose to disengage sexually at one point because there was no true intimacy with regards to emotional connection, nor in relation to a deeper platonic resonance and communication.
The tunnel-vision focus on sex, physical affection, and her romantic expectations around these things were over-riding everything else. It was deeply confusing and frustrating. Alternatively, I got triggered and projected on her, continuing this back and forth situation. However, at the same time, I had a lot of feelings for her, believing that I was in love.
As this impasse continued, I started to feel very drained and suffering from a lot of body pain, especially in my solar plexus. Going to work and doing bodywork sessions became very difficult for me. She also started to feel drained, but whenever I tried to talk about all of this and apply basic psychology, she got triggered and took it personally.
I was so confused, and literally thought I was going crazy, so at times I became over-bearing in my comments and we got into arguments. We did have some very good times and a lot of fun as well, but the emotional roller coaster of extreme highs and lows was completely out of the ordinary — something which I had never experienced before in that short amount of time.
During her stay, I succumbed to feelings of shame and guilt involving her criticism that I was not satisfying her enough , which led to me engaging with her sexually to a degree that I did not feel comfortable with, and constantly beat myself up for not being more sexual generally. There were other red flags which I ignored that related to her sexual history and upbringing, all of which surfaced over time…I managed to rationalize them away as well.
The intense emotional pull to be with her was overriding my critical thinking skills, and I got lost in the romantic bliss we thought we were sharing with each other. This may sound prudish but I do think human sexuality is powerful and threatening to the dark forces and they use normalizing sexual deviance and loose sexual behaviors to destroy people and to prevent the true spiritual potential of human sexually from being realized and enjoyed. There is no comparison when sacred sexuality is honored, realized and or known.
Lower forms of sexuality are then obviously repulsive, low and degrading to every person involved. Having the good sense to set appropriate boundaries, finding and addressing our blind spots and past traumas that create unconscious reactions and developing the capacity for highly evolved skills of discernment is of extraordinary importance.
The last week of her stay, I got sick again, and was emotionally drained — my physiology was under a lot of duress. Another red flag which appeared at this time was the fact that she had been suffering from sleep paralysis throughout her life, and she also opened up and shared that she had had high strangeness experiences that involved alien entities.
While she was here, she experienced a couple episodes of sleep paralysis, the most disturbing one taking place shortly before she left. She woke up in the middle of the night after being caught in this sleep paralysis, and was very afraid. As I laid down again next to her, I suddenly felt this very strong sexual energy coming from her. Although I was tired, I got very aroused, and started to have sex with her. The next day, I asked her why she had wanted to have sex after her sleep paralysis episode.
She also shared more about her sleep paralysis condition. When she was caught up in it, she saw two entities — one hovering over my body and one over her body — as we were lying in bed. Connecting all of the dots together, I tried to bring up the topic of spirit attachments and even the Love Bite scenario , but it triggered her immensely, and she took it all way too personally. It seemed as if something was working through her which was deeply affecting me as well.
Describing this entire drama in words is extremely limiting. This should be clear to anyone who reads this whole blog in context. It is through identifying these mistakes and examining the attacks that we learn and grow. As Tom Montalk wrote in a recent article :. The Matrix, even with all its imbalances and corruption by those freewill entities who have overstepped their place in nature, is nevertheless still a learning program entirely responsive to our own ignorance and weaknesses.
The Matrix Control System can only trip us via the elements within us that correspond to its low vibratory nature. If we ignore our intuition, have blind spots in our awareness, or engage in ignoble feelings and behaviors, then these are the avenues through which we are had. A couple of days after that incident occurred, she flew back home, and we left everything on a good note.
We then tried to work through, long-distance, all of the issues that had been coming up between us — it was a total mess. I was very confused, with part of me knowing that this needed to stop — that we needed to stop engaging altogether. Another part of me, however, wanted to work it out so desperately, and I felt a strong emotional attachment to her.
The communication issues became worse, and it felt like we were talking different languages. I was also not handling the situation well at times, and kept writing to her, even though she had told me that she needed space on her own. My need for closure and release — contradicted by a desire to work things out, and my emotional distress around this goal — was very confusing for both of us.
I was hurting a lot inside, but the grief and emotional pain I was going through was simply way too over-blown when compared to any other break-up I had experienced after such a short period of time. I was unable to let go, and the pain in my solar plexus increased — even manifesting into a muscle spasm in that area that lasted for weeks, which gave me a great deal of pain as well.
I felt just like I did after the break-up of my last relationship, only worse. It was so extreme, feeling drained and paralysed all the time, and the emotional turmoil had gotten the best of me. The intense pain in my solar plexus was the same pain I experienced in the other two previously-mentioned relationships as well, and was a sensation I had never experienced in any other relationships. In most of the case studies presented by Eve Lorgan, either one or both partners also experienced uncomfortable sensations and pain in the solar plexus area:. Finally, after a couple of months of shared communication, she gradually came to understand how her childhood issues were coming through her sexual desires, thus resulting in expectations that no man could fulfil — patterns which matched my own childhood wounding baggage.
She was also able to see how our relationship had characteristics which strongly suggested the presence of a dark side of cupid scenario. We left it at that, and stopped communicating altogether, which seemed to be the best outcome for both of us. However, the more I pushed through these blockages with the help of good and supportive friends who gave me great feedback and kept encouraging me , the stronger my recovery.
Taking extra-gentle care of myself — and especially getting into my body through yoga and bodywork — has helped a lot in this process. There are many other ways in which the Dark Side of Cupid can play out in a relationship, depending on each person involved. I also want to make clear, once again, that this is not about a blame game, about shaming partners. This is also not a gender-based issue. We need to embrace an attitude of objective self-reflection when dealing with relationships in general, especially with regards to seeing and owning our blind spots.
If you scroll back up to the list of characteristics Lorgen mentioned, I can answer a yes to most points she mentions in my experiences. They all manifested in different ways and in varying degrees in each relationship. Of course I need to look within myself and at my part and issue of why why I was attracted to them, my own blind spots, wounds, and wishful thinking which these entities target, while I was ignoring all the red flags that were present at the beginning and throughout the relationships.
Many who experienced a paranormally-influenced love relationship realized their red flag warning signs only in hindsight. Some people reported very physical warning sensations such as restlessness, stomach cramps, changes in appetite, jaw pain, and headaches. Others noticed mental or emotional symptoms such as anxiety or edginess. Yet, it is possible for them to recover their awareness of these physical reactions by paying close attention to their feelings and actively working to heal their traumas.
It is much more helpful to find a compassionate person to hear and understand us, someone who can help us become aware of our own blind spots. In the long run, isolation only creates more problems. Regarding paranormal interference in our lives, the widespread lack of awareness is not only the result of trauma or some walled-off, unhealed psychic wound. It is usually more about our social conditioning or even, as I have found, outright censorship of such things as UFOs, extraterrestrials, mind control experimentation, ancient scriptures, or indigenous traditions which warn humanity about spiritual warfare.
Yet this did not always work in their favor when it came to red flag warning systems. The Dark Side of Cupid is real. Open discussion about it is important. We need to take global responsibility for growing in spiritual discernment and stepping it up a notch in the emotional intelligence department! We need to become aware of the specific red flags that often accompany the Dark Side of Cupid. These are indicators of an unseen interference factor.
These red flags are not necessarily in response to the love partner, but can be from the general atmosphere of the relationship itself, as if it were being arranged by an intelligent force behind the curtain. More often than not, the red flags are recognized only in hindsight, after the love relationship gets going or even after it ends.
The biggest obstacle to recognizing them in time is a simple lack of knowledge. Many of the above-listed red flags were ones that I did notice both before and during those relationships , but are even more apparent now in hindsight. Sometimes, we actually can trust our first hunch — our primal intuition — before the projections and rationalizations kick in.
It is important to understand that these entities, aliens, hyperdimensional overlords, or whatever you want to call them, specifically-target our personal blind spots, wounds, and wishful thinking processes. These love bites and interferences are then able to psychologically-manifest in our reality via various issues and relationship dynamics, but on an individually-tailored level.
The most basic example would be the targeting of our unfulfilled childhood needs, which become even more heightened as a result, and we then unconsciously try to have a partner fulfil those needs, or even subliminally attract a partner based on those unrequited expectations. Everyone in our society is narcissistically-wounded to varying degrees — it comes with the territory of growing up in a sick culture where pathological characteristics have become normalized and also because no parent or care-taker is perfect.
The wetiko culture offers no incentive for them to self-reflectingly speculate upon their increasingly depraved condition; on the contrary, the nonlocal field configures itself to enable, further cultivate, and deepen their psychosis. When someone is a full-blown, unrecognized wetiko, the field around them torques so as to protect, collude with, and feed into their psychosis in a way that entrances those around them.
Similar to how an octopus squirts ink in order to hide, a psychic field gets conjured up around full-blown wetikos which obfuscates their malfeasance. Once under the wetiko spell, people lose the capacity to recognize the wetiko pathology in others. Such a group consensus about the nature of reality gets increasingly hard to sustain as time passes, however, as, like a house of cards ready to collapse at any moment, its vision of the world is based on the fundamental error of not being true. Strangely enough, people under the collective enchantment of wetiko become fanatically attached to supporting an agenda that oftentimes is diametrically opposed to serving then own best interests.
This is an outer behavioral reflection of the inner state of being under the sway of the self-destructive wetiko parasite. All of the mainstream, culturally sanctioned, corporatized institutions are in the business of indoctrination, telling us what to think and not think, as well as how to think. Our mind is continually being massaged into shape by the prevailing culture, our true face lifted as our spiritual pockets are picked. The culture that informs and forms around wetiko illness is itself a channel of its transmission and growth. If we sign on the dotted line and subscribe to its viewpoint, its life-denying culture will gradually subsume us into itself, enlisting us as its agents who unwitingly do its bidding.
We are truly in a war. It is not the war we imagine we are in, which is the way our true adversaries want it. It is ultimately and actually not a foreign war against a foreign enemy. It is a war on consciousness, a war on our own minds.
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There is a world of difference between healthy self-love and self-expression, and the insatiable and soul-warping obsessions associated with Narcissism; sometimes the lines which separate these realms are blurry, for we all possess the immense ability to lie to ourselves and rationalize our behaviour. I certainly can see how my own co-dependency issues have attracted narcissistic women. Shamanic cultures were very aware of hyperdimensional interference and the presence of malevolent sprits who would attach themselves to people their energy body and aura in order to create physical and psychological disease and illnesses.
Distance is irrelevant to the program in place, because these beings exist outside of our 3D conceptualization of space and time. In fact, most of the Dark Cupid cases Lorgen has investigated started off as long distance relationships. That has certainly been my experience, at any rate. My personal blind spots are very clear to me now, in retrospect. Being comfortable in my solitude, I was never desperate for a relationship, and enjoy being single for most part. I never get bored, and seldom feel lonely.
However, a part of me definitely is yearning to be with a partner — someone who is on the same page, and to whom I can connect with on all levels: emotionally, physically and intellectually. Obviously, that is what everyone wants to one degree or another. In my case and for many others as well , love relationships appear to be far more difficult of a proposition once you are in the process of seeking truth over the course of many years, engaged in deeper self-work, and actively speaking out about topics which the majority of people ignore or ridicule.
The higher part that seeks spiritual growth and Union with God, or the Lower part that seeks survival in the Flesh? When we help someone who keeps making the same mistakes over and over again, we are clearly interfering in their lessons. What, then, are we serving? The same teaching is standard procedure among the yogis of India and Tibet.
A sufficient effort must be made by the supplicant before a response is made. So, a good general rule to follow is that TRUE asking is accompanied by sincere effort on the part of the one asking, and they must have done all that is in their power to achieve that for which they are asking.
We cannot, by our very nature of existence in the flesh that must consume to survive, be pure STO beings. I tend to over-extend myself and give more than is being received in-kind. As mentioned before, the women I became involved with over this period all had very strong sexual aspects to their personalities, especially the last one I briefly dated.